Hi I’m Monica

your Mindset and holistic fertility coach
I help you walk your IVF Journey, by being the missing link between you and your clinic.

“My IVF journey was highly personal and spiritual. I know yours is too.”

I’m sure you are wondering what my story with IVF is, and how I could possibly know how you feel. Let me tell you everything…starting from the beginning!

My beautiful stepdaughter was born.

February 2003
I married my husband in Colombia, my birthplace and moved to the U.S.  We are happy newlyweds and started trying to have a baby right away.

February 2004
After a year of trying, I still hadn’t gotten pregnant. I began to worry because my husband already had a daughter from a previous relationship. Deep down, I knew the problem was with me.

October 2004
After all the regular visits to my OB/GYN and a few months of Clomid, I took blood tests and found out my hormones were normal. The other comforting thing was that my periods were very steady and exact. But still with all this good news, and the clomid, I still did not get pregnant.

The Problem

Eventually my OB/GYN sent me for a Hysterosalpingogram (HSG) (an X-ray for the uterus, fallopian tubes and surrounding area). That is When we finally learned that both of my fallopian tubes were blocked, due to Endometriosis. Now it was confirmed: I couldn’t get pregnant because an embryo could not travel from my tubes down to the uterus… How? They were blocked.  With this confirmation, my heart sank.

At this point my OB/GYN recommended a visit to a well-known Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE). He had reasonable prices, a bonus during this emotionally draining and expensive journey.


We left our  OB/GYN appointment, and I was devastated by realizing that IVF was the only solution…. And I cried non-stop.  My husband calmed me down in the car. He helped me see that there was still something to be grateful for. We still had a chance to have a baby.

Searching for a solution

November 2004
It was time to go see the RE. He ordered even more tests and a laparoscopy to try a last chance to open my tubes. But the procedure did not work. We found out they were still blocked after another HSG.

IVF Round One: Success!

Now we knew that IVF was really our only option to conceive a baby. I felt incredibly sad. Everyone else in my family was able to conceive really easily. (it seemed like all they had to do was blow a kiss and boom a baby bump will be there) and I felt so ashamed  of being so different.

Even though it felt terrifying, we went ahead with the IVF process.  I read up on statistics and stories about how stressful the process was and how the chance to get pregnant and bring a living baby was only about 25%. With all my doubts, fears and worries, the initial part of the treatment was smoothly, and we were able to retrieve 34 eggs.

Fourteen of those eggs fertilized successfully, and we transferred four. (We did not know that we could have frozen the rest, and nobody told us in the Clinic). One of those special eggs grew into my oldest daughter Eliyah, which was an amazing outcome for our first IVF attempt.

However, I have to admit that the process was daunting. I had lots of emotional and physical discomfort that knew to expect, but wasn’t ready for. IVF women commonly experience bleeding and cramping, and I was no exception.

I relied on my faith and my family to get through it. My husband and my mom were there each step of the way, and I relied on them to talk me through every time I got scared or anxious . I’m so eternally grateful for their support.


In 2009, we were ready to try again. We started our second cycle of IVF, but the clinic accidentally switched records with another patient, and I was given the wrong dose of Gonal-f. I got OHSS (Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome), and my cycle had to be cancelled.  This was absolutely devastating for us, but we decided to put our faith in the idea that some things happen for a reason.  We waited 3 months until my ovaries got back to normal, and our RE  offered us a cycle without charge, recognizing the mistake the Clinic did.

We then started our third cycle, in this cycle we decided to do chromosomal testing, we got 5 embryos, we learned that one embryo had issues and would not make it. From the remaining 4, 3 were very good and one was developing slowly. We decided to transfer all four, and the embryo that was behind, attached and developed into a fetus.


My pregnancy went really well, including the amniocentesis testing (I was 37 years old), which is when we confirmed that we were having a girl. (we were so excited)!). Everything seemed normal, but there was a problem no one predicted.  We learned later on, that I had developed a blood clotting issue. At 39 weeks, just three days before my due date, our daughter Isabelle died in my womb from a blood clot in the umbilical cord. This is an emotional and mental pain I would not wish on anyone. And the most painful part? I had to deliver her anyway.

I was devastated with grief and wanted to die from the pain. I felt guilty and empty whenever I thought about what had happened.  To fill the empty void, we decided to move ahead with a new IVF cycle (I was stubborn and did not listen to my husband or my RE to wait for a while when I would be better emotionally and mentally). I sped through the protocol and did not wait for even three months to pass before going for a fourth round of IVF treatment.

The result? A positive test… But I was still grieving the loss of our full-term baby Isabelle. Heaviness hung over me, and I miscarried at seven weeks.  Looking back now, I know it was because of the sadness, anxiety and emotional pain I was experiencing.

IVF Round Five: Success!

After the heartbreak of rounds three and four, we needed a break. My marriage almost went into the drain and was close to a divorce.  We took some time for ourselves and waited about a year and a half before starting what would be our last and fifth IVF cycle in September 2012.

During that cycle, I did a lot of internal, mindful work, started to learn to shift my thoughts, and made the decision to take things with a little more ease.  The result?  I was able to relax and this new approach worked!

I got pregnant, I was on Lovenox (a blood thinner from week 20, to avoid another stillbirth), and from this last cycle our little Maya was born. From the first moment I saw her, I had the strong feeling that I already knew her soul. For some reason, I just know that she is our Isabelle (our stillbirth baby girl), she returned to us in a little different body, but same spirit baby.

Now, has this journey been easy? No way!!!

Our IVF Journey nearly broke me and my husband and our marriage, but we stayed together and fought through. Eventually, after 5 Cycles of IVF, I can say that our family is complete.

This is my IVF story, are you ready to tell yours …?

I am not a doctor or mental health professional. My services are not a substitute for professional medical or mental health advice, diagnosis, or treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health provider with any questions you may have regarding a medical or mental health condition. For more information, see my full medical disclaimer.