Words by Kirsten Mooring | @kirstenmooringnutrition |
I always wanted to have a family but I was a driven career girl and only met my fiancé when we were in our thirties. We were both workaholics and high achievers but we knew that having a family at the centre of our life was an absolute priority.
Unfortunately, things didn’t turn out to be straight forward for us and as the months turned to years, the failure of every negative pregnancy test when everyone around was having babies was devastating.
We really feared whether we would ever be able to conceive and wondered if we had left it too late. But then one month the miraculous two lines did emerge on the test! We were so elated. We had gone from really believing it was never going to happen to being overjoyed.
To be safe, we decided to scan early. All was well, a tiny beating heart was at work! But at week 10, the world came crashing down around our ears with the words ‘there’s no heartbeat’ and ‘baby has died’ when we scanned just to sneak a little peak at our baby. No one can prepare you for how you will feel when you lose a pregnancy. We were heartbroken. I really didn’t think we could get any lower.
A few months later, I sadly miscarried again. This time, it was a very early loss but we hurt just as much as the last loss. In the UK, you aren’t entitled to any investigations until after a third miscarriage and so we were left with not knowing why this was happening to us and whether I would ever be able to carry a baby to term. We were rock bottom. I was afraid there was something wrong with me or that I was too old. I felt completely lost.
The one area we hadn’t considered was nutrition and lifestyle. Were we doing the right things? I read and researched every day to find out what could help. We started to eat to optimise not only our overall health but also our reproductive health. We took a few targeted supplements following some blood tests. And we did a check-up on our lifestyle from exercise to bedtime routine to ensure we were giving ourselves the very best chance.
And to our total astonishment it worked!! I got pregnant and gave birth to healthy twin boys! We were totally amazed and overjoyed that it had worked after all our previous pain.
These days I’m so grateful to have two little boys in my life who call me mum. After the boys were born, I determined to help other women and couples to have their rainbow babies too. Whilst I was studying, I had a third unexplained miscarriage. Heartbroken by this loss, even though we have our two beautiful boys, it only made me more determined to learn. After four years, I completed my studies in nutrition and specialised in fertility. And now I’m making my passion a reality, helping women and couples to have your miracle babies too!